Music from My Hearts Bottom

making_waffles @ 2005-05-11T12:57:00

2005-05-11T02:59:15Z

I'm still here, and reading sporadically...

If anyone is interested in coming to hooping in the park on weekends, let me know. ;)

making_waffles @ 2005-03-18T15:10:00

2005-03-18T04:23:49Z

Wow! Look at me! I'm updating my live journal! And using a lot of exclamation points to do it! But I'm quite fond of that, and the ever present '....' (which I also use too many of).
There I go, in the first paragraph doing naughty things like starting sentences with 'but and 'and'. Oh well. I don't really care, just pointing out the obvious I supose.

So lets see.. What can I say? Oh! Went to the new chocolate cafe in King Street last night. It was excellent! It's not actually open yet, but they let us in anyway and gave us free stuff like chocolate shots (with cream and Kahluha) and beer. Excellent! I will certainly be telling everyone I meet about it and insisting that they go. Since most of you live in Newcastle, or at least visit, I would insist that you make your way to 27 King Street post haste after next Saturday for that's when they open. :)

It was my birthday last Sat. It was nice. Had dinner with people I love, received some lovely gifts, that sort of thing. I usually don't like birthdays very much. They make me sad... More so this year than others, but that's o.k. oh, woe is me in my sad sack filled with sadness! ;) My aversion to my own birthday seems to get worse every year. I don't know what that is. Society tells me I should have a white picket fence and some jr.s running around by now. I don't. Perhaps I'll get some paddle pop sticks, pipe cleaners and learn origami and make my own. Much lower maintainence I'm sure.

I'm going to try better with my life this year. I mean in terms of disipline and stuff. That whole thing of 'disipline allows freedom' is really very true. But I don't really want to talk about what I'm going to do, cause if I don't do it, I'll feel like a tool. I want to be the kind of person who gets things done. But we'll see I supose.

I'm thinking about thinking about getting a job, so if you know anyone who works with People with Special Needs, tell them I'm excellent. Thanks!

That's all for now. Hope you're all well

Random update brought to you by the letter P and the number 3.

2005-01-06T09:45:35Z

I got my hair cut today. Nothing exciting, just a trim. But when I say trim, I mean a substantial loss of length. I'm not sure how i feel about it actually. But, it at least is much healthier looking than before. And it will grow back. Probably a good way to start a new year really. Out with the old and in with the new as they say.

I also discovered that I need glasses. So I got those today too. I'm happy that I'll be able to read for longer than ten minutes without feeling like i need a snooze and some lavender for my headaches anyway. Plus now I can pretend like I'm an intellectual. Hooray for superficial brains! ;)

It'd be nice if they could improve my spelling as well as my eye-sight! Spell check is indeed my friend.

New years eve was really great! I didn't end up going to the doof as I thought. It was all the way in Casino! So after my friend got off work at 4, it just seemed like it was way too far to drive. Instead, we had a doof at home. About 15 of us gathered at my friends house, lit a fire (it was really cold! We could see our breath!) and had heaps of chemically assisted fun with fire sticks, poi and of course hoops! Hooray for hoops!

One of the guys there pulled last years planting guide off the wall and passed it between all of us. We each spent as much time as we needed thinking about the year gone by, releasing whatever we needed to into the calender, then burnt it in the fire. It was wonderful.

What else.... Let's see. I realised the other day, after talking on the phone to a friend, that I complain a lot. That whole bull shit of 'if it rhymes with your name you can do it' thing has got to go. It's cute, sure; but as a philosophy it well and truly stinks! Complaining is so ingrained in my personality that I don't even realise I'm doing it. It's stupid.

The fact is, I'm lucky. Of course, everyone's experience of life is valid, including mine, but much of the time I think I let negativity way me down and that's not cool. I don't know how outwardly obvious it is, but it doesn't really matter does it? Whether it's a learned behavior or not, it needs to stop. It will take time, but that doesn't mean it can't be overcome. Awareness is 80% of problem conquered.

Enough of that, on to something fun...

I bought some Phish the other day. I like Phish. I also like fish. Sea horses are pretty cool too. I especially like that the males give birth. Actually, I'll take that back. Hang on a second, no I won't. Males can give birth; I'm sure it hurts like nothing has ever hurt before, but pregnancy would be fun I think. But, can't have one without the other, and I'm sure the pay off is worth it.

New Years resolution: To become a flower so I can do that all on my own...
But then, I'd still need bees.

Oh, and if you haven't seen it, watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It's excellent.

THE END>

A bit of blah blah blah....

2004-12-31T02:01:34Z

I'm not going to do that "oh, my phone tells me it's the last day of the year, I had better reflect" thing... Where have I come from, where am I going?.. All that bullshit. Don't need a calender to tell me to do that Matey! ;)

I'm sick. I have been sick since Monday. Woke up with a nice little trickley nose (aww, sounds so cute when I put it like that doesn't it? ;), which by about 3am Tuesday had turned into a cascading torrent of green snot! Plus a horrible high temperature. So there I was, tossing and turning, unable to sleep and swimming in myself... Not fun. Needless to say, I feel like death.

MAYBE I SHOULD START TALKING LIKE THIS.

Anyway. Enough complaints. I think I'm going doofing tonight near Byron somewhere. That'll be awesome! Unfortunately though, when I packed to come up here, I was thinking about what I'd be bringing back, rather than what I'd be doing while here. What that means is, No Hoops! I'm sure I can borrow...
Can't wait to dance! (insert tacky 80's song of your choice about dancing here)

As it turned out, the packing thing required a lot less forethought for reasons I'm uncomfortable and embarrassed talking about.But greatful too. Sometimes I'm quite surprised at the way I regard myself. That's cryptic, but well... you get that, I'm uncomfortable and embarrassed.
Anyhow, I think that's enough. I'll do a proper update in the next few days to fill you in on what I've been doing.

making_waffles @ 2004-12-21T10:39:00

2004-12-21T00:52:02Z

I haven't written anything for such a long time. Not just here, but in general. That's unusual for me really. I have been known to write up to six A4 pages of... whatever, daily.

Anyway, I'm in Brisbane visiting my parents and friends for a month. It's nice to see people of course, and I'm having fun, but Newcastle is definitely home now. I forgot how much this big city overwhelms me.... and how much the heat really does suck ass!

And so comes the end of my mammoth update. I've now been staring at the blinking cursor for five minutes, so this must be all I have. ;)

I hope you're doing well.

making_waffles @ 2004-09-25T11:12:00

2004-09-25T01:29:02Z

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Then click here to see Mr. Bunbuns and other feline delights!

Like dogs too?
Luna likes playing with the hose, pretending he's a lap dog...and listening to johnny cash!

Things and stuff.

2004-08-05T05:33:22Z

Moving to Newcastle has been a wonderful thing in my life (like I've already said), especially in terms of all the great, fabulous, beautiful people I've been lucky enough to meet so far... And yes, I'm talking about you; all of you. Hoorah!

But in terms of my own emotional life, it's been really...well, odd. I never realised how much of a 'nester' I am. I need a nest. I've not really considered myself to be a materialistic person before. But I am. Things (or more importantly, my things) help me feel grounded.

Right before I moved here, I was having re-occurring visions of my head as balloons. Sometimes just one, but usually three. My little body with my head floating high above it in the wind; attached with fishing line, or maybe spiders thread. I'm still having that now I'm here, but I don't have a body anymore. Just a balloon.

All because I haven't unpacked yet. All because of things. This attachment really annoys me. Partly because I feel stuff should be unnecessary in my persuit of happiness, but mostly because it is. Necessary I mean.

You'll never find me lusting after fine china or anything, but I miss looking around and seeing my paintings on the walls, or having a desk to sit at. I just feel lost.

That's enough wingeing though... Tis but a mere flesh wound, and it will heal. Just helps me to talk about it I suppose. That's why I love journals. I can have a woe-is-me moment and no one else has to hear it (although Mr. Squishy has been listening to a lot of it lately; the poor little fella ;). In terms of LJ, I can feel like I'm talking to people even if I'm not, so everyone can be happy. And I like that!

I made a turtle and an elephant out of wax today. That was fun! And everyone knows that it's fun to have fun!

A real update maybe?

2004-08-04T10:54:19Z

Perhaps, but I haven't really decided yet. I guess we'll see; I'll just type until I run out...

Let's see...I've been in Newcastle for about a month and a half and it's all been pretty wonderful so far, I must say. Well, all except for me being a complete stupid-head on occasion; but I think that's just part of my personality unfortunately. I think I should come with a warning label.

I'd like university a whole lot more this semester if it weren't for nine o'clock starts every day. I know! Can you believe it? It heavied my poor little heart too. I think it's a lot to expect from an arts student really.;)
I've even had to give myself a bed-time (which I haven't adhered to even once admittedly) so I could get up on time. I've missed about half my classes so far. Ooops.

Mr. Squishy* and I are going to see a friends band play tonight, so that should be fun. As a matter of fact, I should really go get ready. I have to brush my hair... Either that, or leave it as it is.

*not his real name ;)

Stinkylink sucks some major something...

2004-07-29T01:25:41Z

But the good news is; life goes on, I've got a cute new icon (by the artist Seaonna Hong. I'll link to her site later), and I learnt how to make sushi last night! Why was always under the impression that that was so hard?

This post was nothing but I have to go to free lunch now.

making_waffles @ 2004-07-27T15:48:00

2004-07-27T05:40:15Z

First entries always suck...

Too much pressure.

The End. Or to be suitably cliche;

The Beginning